Feeling low

It’s one of those days when I don’t feel right about anything at all.  I woke up to a very dark morning, having hardly slept at all the night before.  There was a heaviness in my heart which to this moment is just too much for me to articulate.  I feel exhausted and drained..  I cannot even write about it.

I keep thinking that if a book about my life were to be written, this would count as one of my “lows” during one of the happier times of my life.  Ironic.

I guess it validates what people say that you just cannot have it all.  I used to console myself that perhaps I ought to be content and happy with the good in my life and just take the negative and swallow it.  But now I wonder if that is a healthy attitude considering it has led to so much pent up anger and frustration in me.

I’m a very emotional person and i very rarely hide what’s going on in my mind.  So you can practically see through me when something is wrong.  It’s also very hard for me to hold back my anger which usually leads to my undoing but then, I’m only human.  

So I’ve preoccupied myself with my scrapbook projects.  It reminds me of happy moments I hope to relive again.