There are times when we want to be “there” for someone but cannot be there for one reason or another. There are just instances when try as we might, we cannot accommodate a friend’s urgent request. We try to accommodate but cannot, and on the other side, we try to understand. Then there comes that one break where we are able to call, and that call makes all the difference.
I got such a call today which brought a flood of emotions out when it came. It was both a relief and a semi-missed opportunity to reconnect and ask the questions I had meant to ask. I somehow got caught between that feeling of being caught in the warm embrace of a friend and being shrugged off by someone you had meant to be one of the people you would find yourself running to in times of need. But sometimes expectations and reality don’t meet. That’s a lesson I learned the hard way the last couple of weeks.
I asked and I received. Sometimes they say that the worst thing that could happen is that you be ignored or that you get a “no”. Today, I got a “yes”. Not quite the “yes” I wanted, but a yes nonetheless.
I am still kind of at a loss but grateful nonetheless. I am trying not to expect anything beyond this gesture of kindness. I have barely 36 hours left in Manila and I am hoping that I will find more gestures of kindness coming my way.