There are days when you just find yourself unable to lift your shoulders to stand up straight, or to muster a real smile on your face — sometimes for reasons you cannot explain, sometimes because the weather is overcast like it was in Manhattan today.
I tried to be good with the diet. Then lunch came. I’ve taken on a new project of evaluating the different street vendors hawking lunch fare around me and I will come up with my 3 BEST and WORST when all is said and done — or something like that. Today it was middle eastern (halal) chicken. Yum.
I don’t know if it was the flavors and spices that I took in only with the white sauce and sans any pita bread or vegetable salad but I couldn’t shake this feeling that I needed a whoopie pie. (Whoops! LOL)
The whoopie pie (alternatively called a black moon, gob, black-and-white, bob, or “BFO” for Big Fat Oreo) is an American baked good that may be considered either a cookie, pie, or cake. It is made of two round mound-shaped pieces of chocolate cake, or sometimes pumpkin or gingerbread cake, with a sweet, creamy filling or frosting sandwiched between them. (See Michelin Maynard’s article in the New York Times Whoopie! Cookie, Pie or Cake, It’s Having Its Moment for a more indepth discussion of this heavenly treat.)
So forget that it was raining and I would need to cross the street to the nearest Crumbs bakeshop, but I was in and out of there rather quickly and got back up here before anyone noticed I had gone.
Life’s simple pleasures. There are days when you need a pick me up. I guess, though, I am not eating until tomorrow… LOL
I have always considered myself fortunate enough, even in the midst of a crisis, to have the means to find a solution. I think it’s the Big Boss upstairs or the universe paving the way — whichever way you want to look at it. Still, I get weary giving it the effort. Sometimes I wonder how much more I can give. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.. and stay in a dream state forever. Remember that feeling that takes you over when you realize it’s time to get up but you don’t want to get up?
I am thinking of friends of old — and the comfort their friendship brings. They are too far away. I will probably try Jonathan later. I spoke with Fe last night… need to pick their legal brain. No matter how others disappoint, there are still those who will stick by you through thick and thin. (Or thick and thicker…=)
I think about those who have turned their back on me, or who have forgotten the promises they made. I just close my eyes in acceptance. It is what it is.
I had my whoopie pie.. I’m good. =) At least for another night. Tomorrow, after all, is another day.