I thought my weekend had started when I stepped out of the office at 5:30, boarded the bus home, picked up dinner and some eclairs for dessert and I sat down to watch TV and work on my altered book. I managed to do around 4 spreads of a multi page layout, and I’m just waiting for the latest two-page spread to dry before proceeding. Then an e-mail came in on the blackberry on a work issue that I had made up my mind to postpone for Monday. Apparently, only I felt it was the weekend, and others were too nervous to let the issue be.
E-mail came, and I had to answer. In their nervousness, they failed to see that the big boss wasn’t even aware there was an issue, and now that they wrote in their defense, he is. This could’ve been solved and nothing would’ve been taken against them. But no, some people just can’t keep quiet when they feel they need to put up a defense.
It’s 11pm. I have promised not to look at the blackberry and just let it simmer. There should be a work e-mail rule that things that can be resolved on a work week should NOT be dealt with on a weekend. Like I didn’t mind receiving a nice hello from one of my VP Chiefs of Staff who was in Tokyo, reporting he got my Starbucks mug as I requested, but that he was in one day only next week so we might not see each other until the following week. That wasn’t work and it was an e-mail that made me smile. (The promise of an addition to my Starbucks mug collection is always reason to smile. =)
I shouldn’t be venting about work. The boss himself was away 4 of the 5 days of this previous week. And that is what’s eating me — I get paid to get aggravated by him. I hate it when others below him who do not possess that same stature nor moral ascendancy over me do it and make my life miserable. (Or at least my work life.)
I had been hoping not to have to write about this that’s why I had avoided writing a blogpost of substance all week. My prayer sticky in the post preceding this is also in reference to all the negative energy that seems to be brewing around me. During these challenging times, I am grateful for the support of colleagues like the friend I have discovered in my co-EA next to me. And there are the old reliables like a former second assistant who is more a friend now than a subordinate.
I don’t mean to play the victim. I can be a real diva with a capital B in the office, and I can stand my ground and not let things through. I’m human. Okay, I’m a “taray” human. LOL But the past months have seen me mellowing down. Where my fangs and horns would pop out when provoked much like Wolverine’s blades do when he is agitated in years passed, these days, I take a deep breath and I literally say a prayer. Between the “Our Father, who art in heaven..” to the “..deliver us from evil. Amen.” I find my balance again.
I have taken to answering calls with a standard almost call center like tone saying “I’m here to please” that some people expecting me to bite are getting upset that they can’t make me. (Thinking about that actually made me snicker…) I have found validation when during a three-way call, a third party later felt sorry for me for the way my other colleague had treated me during our discussion. So I knew I wasn’t being my usual bitchy self. I told her not to worry, the other lady lopping my head off was actually a friend. And that was the irony of it.
For a week when I should’ve been able to take things easy, I was kept busy working on so many things I feel so exhausted even as I’m writing this post. Then I remind myself it’s the weekend. Even if it’s not for them, it IS for me.
The weekend it is. I look forward to working with polymer clay again as some Christmas tree ornaments I had experimented on last night came out so much better than I had hoped them to and I’m going to be making more over the weekend. (I think I’ve found the medium for my holiday card this year.) I’ve been trying to catch up with swap deadlines for Artist Trading Cards (ATCs) both at swap-bot.com and ATCsforAll.com.
ABOVE: Zentangled P-Q-R
I’m still learning and I check what mail has come in every day with much anticipation. I have been learning from the different ATCs I’ve received, and I’ve been developing other techniques and trying to make it work with the resources I have.
I’ve been doing several sets involving elements referring to women. Japanese women in traditional costume are a current favorite and I am still set on learning how to do kimono origami.
Most swaps are “themed” and I also finished quite a set of Vintage Dancers where I used a black and white real photo print of Ziegfeld dancers.
Amidst this creative streak, the best news was Angelo was named (yet again), STUDENT OF THE MONTH. (Of course, I’m a proud Mom..)
Again, let me dwell on the happy. =) (Literal smile there.)
It was a challenging week — not a bad week. Productive even if heavy on the heart at times. It can only get better. Next week will be a better week. For now, it’s the weekend. MY weekend is going to be great, and I’m going to try my hardest to make it so.