First, thanks to all who reached out asking if the family back home is okay. I am thankful to God that they are. The storm has passed.. Yolanda is off to some other parts. My brother was in Cebu and my mother was in Sorsogon (in Bicol) at the time the storm hit. Everyone else was in Manila. My brother and mother got hit tangentially but did not suffer the indescribable damage that the province of Tacloban had to deal with. We are blessed.
Secondly, I’m back.
Thanks to JJ for his comment asking me how I have been. I have been “around”, but the urge to write wasn’t there. Suffice it to say that I went back to longhand writing in a journal when I could find reason or the inspiration to write. When I needed to write, I wrote elsewhere. We all have our secret place — I have mine. There, I write not as the Pinay New Yorker.. I write as someone who doesn’t have a ‘real’ identity you can walk up to on the street. There I can be angry or sad without fear of unburdening my heart. Yes, that’s my secret place.
Third, I can’t believe that autumn is here in it’s full glory. It’s the season that I find both hopeful and sad. Hopeful because the leaves change colors into beautiful shades of fire, as if taking a final bow at the end of a fashion show to the applause of a totally captivated audience. Sad because it’s nature making way for the cold and dark of winter.
I sought solace in “silence”. I didn’t think I’d be able to bear writing and editing myself so heavily so I said, why write at all. Hence, the one month haitus from this space.
But life goes on. I’m trying to go on. I have gone through the last month in stops and starts. I am trying to define my direction, and while I have been accused of wearing my heart on my sleeve and writing about everything and anything happening in my life in this blog, I will not be denied my voice in this space where I reign as Queen.
Yes, that’s me — the Queen. (That thought made me smile…) And the Queen has her private space where I need not fear censure. So here, I can write about what the Pinay New Yorker is all about. Here, I can try to aim for a sense of normalcy in my now highly abnormal life. It makes me hopeful that there will be a “normal” again. It makes me think this, like everything, will pass.
Blogging has always been a means of coping for me. No matter how I try to edit myself and how I try not be too honest here, I know it comes out. And I like being able to go back to those times when life was teaching me a lesson so I can reteach myself that lesson.. that is one major function of blogging to me — the account of how my life has gone from day to day eight years ago or yesterday helps me to go forward from today. When I am in need of courage, I go back to those times when courage was aplenty. When I need to be cheered up, I go back to the fun times and the good memories I wrote about. Even this post will one day be a source of “learning” and reflection for me.
And Yolanda is gone… that makes me hopeful. I am heartbroken by the devastation she had wrought upon my home country. I had visited Tacloban once — 20 years ago. It wasn’t quite as urbanized as it is now, but I remember its people and its sights and sounds. The people of Tacloban are a kind and happy people — life is a celebration to them. They are always dancing — they love to party.. they are always full of hope. It is my hope that even if there is not much cause to celebrate in the midst of their hardship and grief, they will find reason to dance again sometime soon through our help.
The world is watching… and the world is reaching out. It brings us all back to the innate goodness of man.
Taken from The Huffington Post, here’s how you can help:
World Food Program. WFP has allocated an immediate $2 million for Haiyan relief, with a greater appeal pending as needs become apparent. The UN organization is sending 40 metric tons of fortified biscuits in the immediate aftermath, as well as working with the government to restore emergency telecommunications in the area. Americans can text the word AID to 27722 to donate $10 or give online.
The Red Cross. Emergency responders and volunteers throughout the Philippines are providing meals and relief items. Already, thousands of hot meals have been provided to survivors. Red Cross volunteers and staff also helped deliver preliminary emergency warnings and safety tips. Give by donating online or mailing a check to your local American Red Cross chapter.
The Philippine Red Cross has mobilized its 100 local outposts to help with relief efforts.
AmeriCares. The relief organization is sending medical aid for 20,000 survivors, including antibiotics, wound care supplies and pain relievers. AmeriCares is also giving funds to local organizations to purchase supplies.
World Vision. The organization is providing food, water and hygiene kits at the evacuation centers. World Vision was also still actively responding to last month’s earthquake in Bohol, which luckily was not struck by the eye of the storm.
Salvation Army. 100 percent of all disaster donations will be used for relief efforts and “to immediately meet the specific needs of disaster survivors.” Text TYPHOON to 80888 to Donate $10 or give online.