There comes a time when we find ourselves looking at everything around us, and we compare ourselves to what we see, and a feeling of worthlessness lands squarely on our shoulders. We realize that everything we have done or put together and built our lives upon are meaningless. We are meaningless.
I’m not trying to wax poetic. It’s a very regular thing that comes flying from out of nowhere and lands on our shoulders whether we welcome it or not. A sense of not having any meaning or purpose. It is a time of vulnerability. It is a time when we take stock and look around us and see things for what they are — the illusion of what we once thought was beauty appears as it truly is: ugly.
The good we thought we saw was actually a sham — a facade that was put on so we wouldn’t see the truth.
The year is about to end and everything around me is just plain darkness. Someone thought it was alright to steal what was mine and ruin what was not perfect but was good. Someone thought that just because her own world was dark, she had every right to spread the darkness into mine. Shame on you, Beth Baja.
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