I’ve been churning out posts that never went beyond “DRAFT”, so they are still sitting here in my dashboard, and all but one are still in limbo — the one having been permanently relegated to “PRIVATE”.
I’m just trying to find a semblance of balance — of calm — so as to be able to write with less emotion and less passion and without anger. There are times when it’s as easy as counting from 1 to 10, and there are times when I actually have to utter a prayer just to bring myself “back.”
Spring is finally here. Everyone is rejoicing even if we’re all bundled up and still in jackets because of chilly temperatures. I like that the trees are abloom again. It does get a little tricky deciding on the proper outerwear to walk out of the house in — do I wear the thick lined coat or something lighter and not as bulky? Do I put the scarf in the bag or do I wrap it around my neck?
Everyday, I’ve been trying to do something I know will relax me before I lay down to sleep. Be it browsing a magazine (I now have three to gawk at) or fiddle with my tools in my continuing experimentation. I’ve taken a liking to crochetting gauge 28 wire and I think I’m getting the hang of it. Now if I can only assemble it into a statement necklace as I’m picturing it in my mind.
Not quite there yet, but I try not to push myself too hard lest I end up working on it until past the witching hour.. I need my rest — not for beauty reasons but for the simple reason that I need it to function productively the following day.
So I got these flowers from the boss at the end of the day, hand delivered and sent to me, and voila — a thank you for a thank you. Gorgeous flowers, they are.