Minutes to midnight again and I almost shut down the computer to turn in when I decided I owed my latest instagram post a companion piece here. I figured I’d type away for 10 minutes and end there.
The thing is, I posted the graphic as a “thank you” for a meaningful week just passed, despite the challenges and the adjustments that had to be made along the way.
Like I wrote in the caption, “Grateful for a truly meaningful and fruitful past week..” There are weeks that just come and go uneventfully, but there are those that do pass us by and leave us with a more profound impact than others, even in the absence of any life-changing events. I’ve started listening to that voice inside me again — realizing that as Evelyn and bff Fe kept telling me, I am important, too. That means taking care of “me” as well as I
take care of everyone else. I did and it actually wasn’t a bad thing at all.
“For baby steps turning into a leap of faith.. ” I have always referred to my attempts at moving forward as the combination of many baby steps to take me from one point to another. It’s my way of coaxing “Me” into trusting myself more. I’ll say it again, I used to be more courageous (or impulsive is another way to put it), but I had been cowed into retreating into a corner instead of standing on stage by the many setbacks I suffered in the last year or two. No more.
“For finally being able to go back to a classroom even if it was only a virtual experience.” I wish I had an extra 6 hours a day to do the readings and catch up with the online lectures, but I am slowly making progress with my History Course. I actually enjoy the pressure of having multi-chapter readings, of taking notes, and of just taking it all in. While I know I have far to go, my journey has started and goes on.
“For more than just elevator rides and sidewalks and being able to see things differently.” Something as mundane as riding elevators can have a new meaning or significance when taken in the context of things you do before or after riding an elevator. I’ve had these experiences lately of picking up on things I see or conversations I hear as I take those two brief rides up and down my building. It has, like
I said, enabled me to see things differently.
“For reminding me life is short and it should be enjoyed for what it is.” Self explanatory, no?
The previous week has not been without its share of challenges, but the gains far outweigh the stress and worries that accompanied my usual toil. At the end of the week as I look forward to the next, I am grateful.
Even as I am trying to make sense of some things and trying to make adjustments to others — I am full of hope for the coming week and know that there will be more things to be thankful for when it comes to a close.
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